I've felt the urge to write all day. Surely there must be words for this day this year... I've struggled to find them all day. I stood on the platform at my church today and dedicated our sweet about to be adopted baby girl. I stood next to Mamas figuring out the whole multiples under … Continue reading Mother’s Day, broken thoughts from a broken foster Mom
"Lord,who am I that you notice me? Yet, you've studied me, all my actions and words and thoughts-and you've chosen to love and redeem me. Your thoughts towards me are more numerous than the sand! Root out the distrust and anxiety in my heart. Amen." -Joe Tyrpak As I look back on 2017 it almost … Continue reading For The Mom With Anxiety: A Foster Moms Perspective
Please don’t tell me to keep my chin up. I can’t right now. I won’t. I folded a load of his laundry today. A few brightly colored stacks of race cars and superheroes. It hurt so bad I could barely breathe. What are you supposed to do with a holiday season when there is no … Continue reading Dealing with Grief this Holiday Season
Have you ever just sat in quiet thinking about who Jesus is? I sometimes try to imagine what Jesus looked like. What did his face look like when he was feeling his deepest emotions? What did his eyes look like when he was flipping the money tables in the temple, or weeping in the garden? … Continue reading The most surprising thing about foster care
It finally hit me yesterday what it really is that makes me love the holiday season so much. I mean I love people and parties so, check. I love giving and getting gifts so there's another obvious, check. I love sparkly lights and reasons to drink hot drinks, i.e. coffee so again, check. But not … Continue reading 4 Tips for When You Don’t Feel Thankful
Visit days are horrible. I'm just going to get that out right in the open. This weekend my husband and I had to drop our little guy (who has now been in our home for over a year.) two hours one way for a two night overnight visit. Needless to say our hearts break more … Continue reading My Marriage Needs Foster Care
“I don’t love you Mommy!” My breath catches in my chest. I look into the angry eyes of this stranger-child, this child of another woman who’s Mommy I’ve suddenly become. We were up to our hearts in a tantrum. Legs flying, arms flailing, consequences failing- then suddenly, still. Five little words bring us both to … Continue reading What Millennial Mamas Need Most
Fellow Christ adoring Mama, aren't you glad to know there really is purpose in all this? All the discipline and diapers and laundry. That these things really are your reasonable service-your eucharisteo- allowing you to worship our Lord. When my husband and I first were married we moved across the country from all of our … Continue reading 5 Posts Every Future Foster Mama Must Read.
A Mom killed on her way home from visiting her brand new babes in the NICU. Senseless killing in Vegas. A young husband and father's plane crashes and he has yet to be found. Two of my three children are going to be taken away because they aren't biologically mine. I want to crawl down … Continue reading When you can’t handle the suffering in the world anymore.
My family is falling apart and I can't do anything about it. There are family photos in my house. All over my house. But they aren’t my family anymore. The word “family” is peeling off my wall and it is a declaration of things to come that laughs in my face, but I can’t take … Continue reading My Family is Falling Apart